paleo and me

I’ve had a great big bump in blog views lately thanks to my review of Make It Paleo and the amazing authors sharing it on Facebook, and it’s really made me want to share more of my story…and a few photos.

Deep breath…here goes…

I’ve struggled with my weight and my relationship with food for as long as I can remember. I’ve battled between binge eating and obsessive dieting, sometimes falling into unhealthy workout and harmful purging habits. In high school, I discovered fat-free and Snackwell’s and ate pasta every day. In college and my early years as a wife and mother, I gained and lost the same 40 or 50 pounds on a fairly regular basis.

I thought I had finally found a place of health a few years ago after losing 70 pounds on Weight Watchers, but even that was a struggle. I constantly fought cravings and it was nearly impossible for me to maintain my weightloss.

Seven months after I stopped Weight Watchers, I came home from a women’s retreat and became ill. What started as a low fever and body aches quickly developed into frozen and swollen joints, and complete mental fuzziness and confusion within a week. By the end of that month, I had more or less every symptom you could list for fibromyalgia…even though my doctor continued to be certain that it was all in my head. I gained 40 pounds in less than 2 months, with another 30 piling on within the next three.

What followed was 18 months of confusion. I didn’t really respond to fibromyalgia medications and was having horrible side effects to the anti-depressants my doctor was convinced I needed…probably because I didn’t. I’ve lived with depression on an off since middle school – this wasn’t it. My gynecologist thought I had classic symptoms of insulin resistance, tested me for it, and told me to pull all refined flour and sugar from my diet. I ate very little flour and almost no sugar for a month, lost 10 pounds, felt a little better, and then went back to my normal diet when the blood tests said insulin resistance wasn’t my problem.

This went on and on until August 2010. Pain, confusion, stress, anxiety, more pain, more stress, and so much frustration because I felt like my body was betraying me. My normal diet has always been fairly clean, full of lots of fruits and vegetables and lean meats. With the added stress of a new school year and one child having a particularly difficult time adapting, I found myself moving far away from that normal diet to lots of fast food and junk food and feeling worse than ever before.

I noticed, though, for the first time how truly horrible I felt after each meal – especially when they were wheat heavy, like a dinner at Bucca di Beppo that left me feeling like I was in a coma…underwater…and incapable of putting together a coherent sentence – and started to wonder…

maybe gluten was the problem.

I’d felt so much better that month I stayed away from refined sugar and flour. I did a few internet searches and decided to go for it.  Within a few days, the mental fog started to clear. Before the first month ended, the joint pain was gone. At two months, it was beyond obvious that gluten had been my problem all along. Now that I’m over a year gluten-free, I have no fibromyalgia symptoms at all. I lost about 25 of those pesky pounds I gained in the first year, and another 25 over the last eight months. The mild depression that I’ve battled since middle school went away.

I started studying paleo three or four months ago, after a failed attempt at vegetarianism. I’d noticed during that time that I was relying more and more on grains and legumes, and some stomach issues I hadn’t dealt with for a while flared back up. I was fighting for energy levels – even while making certain to get lots of animal free protein. And I just didn’t feel good.

I’ve been reading about nutrition for quite a few years now – spending a little time dabbling in Weston Price stuff, learning about things like micronutrients – and knew that what my body wanted was a whole foods based diet that was also non-imflammatory. The more I studied, the more I became convinced that paleo was something I needed to commit to.

It didn’t take long to figure out that paleo was the answer I’ve been looking for all along. My weight, which had plateaued for the last six months regardless of what I ate or how much I exercised, started dropping again. The stomach issues are a thing of the past. Sugar cravings are gone.

Food is simply that – food. Fuel for my body. It’s not something I obsess about, it’s not something I feel guilt or anxiety over. It’s just food.

Even more than that, I feel good. When I look at that picture from December two years ago, all I can see is how unhealthy I was. Not just over-weight, but chronically ill. My skin looks gray, my face swollen, even my posture is bad.

Now, I feel amazing – I have energy to run through my day, I sleep like a rock for 8 hours straight, my skin glows. I’m finally enjoying the health and wellness I lost and have fought so hard to get back. I can be active with my kids and keep up with my two-year old nephew every day.

I still have further to go. I’d like to lose some more weight, but as Stacy shared last week on Paleo Parents my goal has evolved. I want to be at a comfortable weight – something I don’t have to fight day in and out to maintain. I’d like to go down about one or two more pant sizes, but realize that I have good German birthing hips and I’ll never be a size 7. With cooler weather and shorter days, I’m struggling to get exercise in regularly and I know that will help me firm up even further.

I’m worth it. I’m worth taking a few extra minutes to plan meals…to cook extra chicken for lunch the next day…to order crazy requests at restaurants…to reprioritize my budget when needed to feed my family food that nourishes them in the best possible ways.

Are you?

More of my paleo posts.

menu plan monday – 09.25.11

It’s going to be a fun week – one of our MFF’s (most missed friends) is coming to visit from Florida next weekend – and we can’t wait. The weekend menu is a little bit open, but here’s the rest:

Chicken with Creamy Sun-Dried Tomato Sauce
Brown Rice – looking for a soaked, baked recipe
Sauteed Squash

Easy Slow Cooker Pot Roast
Potatoes, Onions and Carrots

Mushroom Pork Chops (I use this recipe for homemade cream of chicken soup, using half the amount of corn or tapioca starch instead of flour for thickening)
Steamed Broccoli

Soutwestern Flank Steak
Green Salad

Slow Cooker Chicken Tortilla Soup

Grilled Lamb Chops
Grilled Tri Tip Steaks with Montreal seasoning
not sure what else yet – definitely a great big salad…maybe some grilled veggies and potatoes?

quick trip to San Francisco after church – looking for somewhere good to eat, possibly on the water

This post will be linked to Organizing Junkie’s Menu Plan Monday. Looking for meal inspiration? It’s a great place to visit!


Since late last August,  I’ve eaten as gluten-free as I can. At two months, it had made a massive difference in the way I feel, the way I think, the way I live. Around six months, I was feeling amazing and stayed that way until about six weeks ago.

Now, at nearly a year…I feel like I’m falling apart again.

Somewhere in the past few months, I convinced myself I could handle a little bit of gluten once in a while…which turned into a little bit of gluten just about every day as we moved into the parsonage and I’ve struggled to find a new rhythm in a new place. I’m still not eating regular bread or pasta, but taking a bite or two of donut…battered fish…eating chow mein at my favorite Chinese restaurants…letting my guard down and paying the price. Sugar followed, as it usually does, and meat started making its way back into my regular diet.

My body is definitely paying the price, and it’s a high one.

My energy levels have fallen drastically. I’ve got aches and pains and my brain just isn’t working the way it should. Random swelling, a pain in my left arm and wrist that just won’t quit. My stomach spends most of the day and night telling me I’m an idiot.

What the heck is wrong with me?


And why do I feel the need to throw this out into the universe via blogging?

Because it needs to stop.

I need to stop.

I know what I need to be eating. I know that my body can’t handle gluten without swelling and pain and all sorts of other issues. I know that meat makes me feel icky. I know that refined sugar gives me headaches.

For some reason, I’m ignoring everything my body is telling me I need for what my brain is telling me I want – rebelling and chafing against the discipline I’ve worked so hard to develop.

Ultimately, it is far more of a discipline issue than it is a food issue.

I’m done.

  • No more gluten.
  • No more meat, just fish once in a while.
  • Cutting way, way back on the sugar.
  • Getting back to predominantly cultured dairy products.
  • Back on the veggie train.
  • Welcoming back green smoothies on a daily basis.

I’m not looking forward to the detox. I am looking forward to feeling better, though, and being able to live life more fully again at the end of it and that’s going to go a long way in sustaining me through the hard parts.

How is your diet looking? Are there any changes you need to make, big or small? What steps are you taking this week towards optimal health and wellness?

menu plan Monday – 07.11.11


It's been sooo long since I've been able to get one of these published. It's my first official week of meal planning in the parsonage and, boy, do we ever need it. I've been picking up groceries, but somehow never seem to get the right things to actually make a meal. It makes such a huge difference in the way my day is ordered – not to mention our budget! – to have a menu plan in place.

A quick note: while most of my family isn't, I am gluten-free and eat meat only occasionally. Any recipes that call for pasta, I just substitute brown rice or quinoa pasta. I skip bread, and eat extra veggies and the grains I can eat instead of meat.

Vietnamese Crockpot Chicken
Brown Rice
Asian Slaw (a bag of slaw mix and my favorite Pampered Chef Asian Dressing)

Pork Chops (marinated in garlic and rosemary from the bush I found outside Tom's office)
Mashed Potatoes and Gravy (made with cornstarch instead of flour)
Steamed Broccoli

Fajitas (add mushrooms – sooo good!)

Tuscan Lemon Chicken
Brown Rice Pilaf

in the mountains – eat out


Chicken Lettuce Wraps
Veggie Fried Rice

Lots of tried and true favorites, one new recipe to try out and a few more I'm wanting to try for next week. Is there anything new and yummy you're trying this week?

This post will be linked to Organizing Junkie's Menu Plan Monday. Looking for meal inspiration? It's a great place to visit!